You are What You Choose to be---Walk Hard!!!    复制

今天在网上无意中浏览到一则新闻“女研究生上吊自杀”事件。简单要故事情节是：30岁的杨某在上海一法学院读研，要求学校给其母亲一张床位，学校未同意，其在洗手间水龙头上用毛巾将自己吊死...... 她的遗书上写的“知识并未改变其命运....."

我不想谈太多关于其死因，因是感觉到生命的脆弱，除外在的因素外，其它我们自己想放弃它是件易事。当年听齐秦的“一场游戏一场梦”，并不能理解歌词的本质含意，只知道好听。走过多个春秋后，回头看看，才能真正体到歌者的心声。生活中：人们为名，为利，为爱，为车，为房等等拼死拼命的去追求，其实所追求的这些东东，在死亡面前，真的一文不值。但我们都还在拼......哪怕失去一些最珍贵的东西，像亲情，友情。我们每个人成为这场游戏的主角，为一个不持久的梦去挣。

像杨某，满腹经文，却这样就结束了自己的年轻生命且没有给社会做点贡献。或许会读书且能读书的人，都有一种韧性，所以他们成绩优异，能考研读博，这固然是件好事，也值得学习。但是，若在生活中，或者困难面前还保持这种韧性，不会转弯且死钻牛角尖。所以就会导致负面影响。这或许就是常会所说的书呆子。读过头了。

所以，对于生活，不要太较真，任何事情尽力就好，即使你不把生活当一场游戏一场梦，但我觉得：在当今的社会，健康的心态，向上的心态，平和的心态，对于一个生存在当今社会的人士来说非常重要。当你不能改变环境时，你只有变你自己的，哪怕是为了一场游戏一场梦，因为在这圈子里，你不是单独体，把自己融入到些圈子中才能幸福。

人生---一场游戏一场梦，但我希望能找到一到一些“真”的东西。

Checking my bokee,last essay was writed on Mar.19,2009.From that time to now,i had big change in my life.going our of HuNan University;going to GLV;Going to BeiJIng;and then coming to Dongguan and then get my present job.In one word,everything is smoothly for me.However,i do not spend some time to decorade this room.Sb must say that i am a lazy guy.Maybe i am...

How time fly!Settling this little home is almost over three years.In first two years.Here is such as my family.When i do not have good mood,i like writing sth here.At that time,when i am very happy.I rarely come here write sth. So when i scan previous essay,i can find my bad situation.Meanwhile.At the same time,i can find my growing up food here.I found out everything is following my step that was hoped by myself before.I am good step by step.I am sure in future i come here often and write down more good news about myself.

My life become more and more beautiful.so i hope this little home can turn more and more beautiful alike.Good chance for a full prepared guy,i can get present good job.I appreciate my previous choose that going to school to improve myself is fantastic action.Nowadays,company begin to cancel HK sales team and building it in factory.So i can get this good chance.I hope i can become a successful salesman within one year.So i must work far harder and study much harder.I believer you pay more you can get more.

Installing the internet in my dorm,this is more convenience for me to come here. Using internet,i can surf webside,write diary,listen BBC and so on freely.In following days,i will come here usually!I need to leave my step here to my bright futher!

Every thing is possible equal nothing is impossible.Keeping moving!!!

Nowadays is Feb.of 2009.After some days,we will welcome March.Time is as fast as the emissive arrow. Since last year i instructed myself to study english for one year.Accounting it,i will finish my plane in four months.Looking back the past most half year,i think the study effect is worse than i thought,but i due to insist on keeping to learn.Except the oral english,others have enhanced.i'm sure study is a accumulative process.if only i didn't give up,i could do it.

This term,i spend most of time learning by myself,Because i have completed the trainning course on last term.On the winter holiday,my tarin course classmate told me that i had better go out for business and i don't need waste more time in the school and say that the earlier i got,the more payment i made.but i don't think so.now i am in hunan university.Apart from useing knowleague fill myself,the better thing is i can enjoy the campus life and self-adjust.Thinking of that i never can find this time anain in four months later,i further prize this living.

Now there are two evens maybe get me change my plane.First,A good friend introduce me a job in a trade company that is located in ChangSha City.That is a pint-sized foreign company.my friend said this job can make me familier with internation trade flow......Second,I learned GLV (a whole close oral english institution) have a promotion that on the occasion of GLV 10 years,if some one study for 4 weeks or more,he will get another 2 weeks for fee.This is actually a good news for me.Because in my schedule i planned attend this train in the end of May.The schooling is much higher for common people.it costs RMB4000.00 per two weeks.If i can choose this golden time for study it,i will save more money...... Either thing makes somebody change his living,but i give up them.Considering it in the long run,The first thing's cause is that the company is too samll to find the suit position for me.though i used to work in factory for years,i have the relative internation trade experience.i don't need time to study it in a plebeian firm.The second reason is that i more sure studing depend oureselves.though GLV provide the pure english environment,we still can not study well if your don't have firm english foundation.you will catch nothing that waste time and money.

Now i face the muti-pressure in the following:Though parent infinitely support me to drop the job to upgrade myself.it is means that i can't let them down.i know they hope me have to ideal future.I can't promise anything,but i study do my best.At this age,i don't have my half,don't have job,don't a nice tomorrow and don't have money and so on,still the time has past,but these belong to the people of my own age.sometimes staying alone,i consider just like a dream that get me could find the exist to future.i struggle with everything around me.

This July,i will continue the gang-there-out life again.i hope english become catalyst for me to access the success.Maybe i consider too more,i should do more and think less.

Go with the flow,do best my essential job.come on come on!!!

The time is runing fast,last week,the teacher said we would had holding  the middle text at the end of this month.my dear!this term has past a half,but i feel i don't have more knowledgue.by contraries,i find out a lot of problem in my studing,just as pronunciation.glossary.spoken language(tongue).phrase.stence.ect.i have a large of thing have to improve.so have to study harder and harder,

Now, every day i study about 14 hours,i get up at 6:30 a.m. and go to sleep at 11:30 p.m.,sometimes(at times),i feel very tired,but i don't have another choose,i have to keep it up.maybe i have ever worked,i know the knowledgue is how important to go into business.i hope the studing fill my life and i hope the studying change my life.

i think study is not easy.

Hello everyone!

First of all i have to say sorry,these days,i am busy studying.so i have little time come here say hello to everybody.

From Aug.28 to today,i have been in ChangShang for a month.i feel the time is very fast.maybe i'm old,the time always run quickly,never give me more one second.ah!!!

Now i'm in HuNan University for promoting my english,here is a nice place,it's just under the岳麈mountain.we can clim the mountain on Sudnay,it's a very good sport  for me.there are a lof of trees on the campus,ect.the environment is very good for studying,so my choose is right.

I have studied for a month.i think if you are really study hard,you are not relax,oppsitely,i thank very tired,because we have a lot of lessons and knowledge to remember.and we have to practice our spoken english.but i belive myself,i must do it best.

Today is Sep.29,2008.the day after tomorrow is National Day,i will go home with my classmate.after highschool,this is the first go home spending the National Day. because since i stared the work,i almost have little time on National Day's,it's terrible!!!i will have good time with parent and yourg brother.

though i have studied english only a month,but i thank my engish have a big progress.i can write the fluent articl and read the english book and i can cogitate something in english.

Now i think of a famous saying---everything is possible(nothing is impossible),as long as you bravly to do.

很快，在湖大的生活就过了两个礼拜了。

总的感觉不错，一个全新的环境，大学生活，也圆了我重踏校园的梦，能再入校园是一个很享受的环境。但这两个礼拜学下了，让我感觉读书的压力不会比上班小。由于底子还好，所以考试分班后直接进强化班，强化班的学习以口语和商务英语为主，口语的练习只要自己赶于丢面子，应该不是太大问题，但现在头痛的还是商务英语（当然这也是全班同学的一致反应），因为商务英语的专业词汇量多且长，要记下来还真要下苦功夫了，由于是专业词汇量大，如果没有商务英语的底子，学起来有点吃力的，因为老师上课都是全英语教学，也不允许我们用中文提问，这样只有迫使自己努力学习了，在平常加大学习力度。我想只有努力，攻下英语不是问题的。台上一分钟，台下十年功，为了自己，为了明天我一定会好好加油。时不我待！！！

２００８／８／8是奥运会的开幕式，今天是２００８／８／２４，奥运会的最后一天，时间真快，历时１6天的奥运会即将闭幕，本届奥运会正如我上上次博文所写：取得了世界排名第一的好成绩：金牌５１枚，银牌２１枚，铜牌照２８枚．总奖牌会数量１００．这也是一个好数字，即表示中国举办此次奥运会的圆满成功，又表示此表示此次比赛举办得十全十美．应该还有更好的意义，留着大家想．＾＆＾．．．总之是个吉利数字．

我也在这个时间段做了一个人生很大的转折，开幕式时我还在公司上班，但此刻的我却成了一个无业游民，现在和同学朋友在一起渡过在广东所剩的几天，因为火车票已订好本月２７号就回长沙了．没有工作的压力的日子感觉不错，蛮轻松的，且还有好朋友相伴，很好！！！感受着这种＂自在＂的日子．．．．．．唯一让我有点纠心的事：工资还没结到，也不知道公司会拖到几时，但我已跟紧财务了，也有电邮给老板，希望明天工资能如期到帐．祝福．．．（今年以来感觉各方面都还蛮顺利的，所以我相信幸运会时时伴随着我．）

在网上济浏览中国历届奥运会所取得的成绩，也是中国在进步强大的见证，让世界见证着东方巨龙在遂步强大，并成为世界强国．中国好样的！看着国家的强大，作为国民的一份子从心底感到光荣，也在激沥的自己也要努力，加油，落后就要挨打！

其实，这次脱产就读，身边也有部份反对的声音，他们认为可以自学，或者利用业务时间来进学习班也不错的，这样也让自己的经济来源有保证，我也不反对此观点，因为个人的情况不同，考虑问题的出点就不同，导致所做的结果不同，只要自己认为对，值得去做，哪怕结果真的不如自己所期，也无悔！我会做好万全的准备，做最坏的打算．我也相信我自己一定可以做好，加油！

希望２００９年的我是个全新的我！我会做到的！！！